brighter than sunshine

2008-01-20T03:15:00.000-08:00

to be a part or depart.....

ok hello yellow bellow hollow peeps. IM BACK!yea as in back to blogging. december is crazy january is going to crazy. likewise for the rest of the year till december i guess. OMG.jc life really can eat ur brains(this let me think of elaine)haha.
anw. despite all the business. it has been fruitful. as in all the things i did wasnt for nothing.
first wk of dec: X29 CAMP!
its really fun filled and all you can think of is just HOW DO I SERVE GOD TO ANOTHER LEVEL. and also, this time, there are actually a diverse of speakers for the sermons! every speaker got their own story to share and yupp. its really interesting! the concert too! SUPER HYPE!and yea but to the sermons, the teachings are mostly 'back-to-basics'. they remind us of things that we usually forget in our everyday lives. which is super essential for christians like us,OLD BIRDS.HAHA

second wk of dec: grandma died. i didnt cry at all cause i feel that it is a freedom from pain for my grandma. and im glad, i really tried to keep my grandma happy and comfy during her 3 wks hospital stay before that. she told my aunty and uncles that she really loved my massaging. which makes me feel glad finally i can do sth for her. she's a really nice grandma and she love all of her children grandchildren great-grandchildren deeply. they are all shown thru her actions. i respect her, as a mother, a grandmother. also, thank you veejay cg for coming down to pay me visit twice during the funeral! and all the snacks u all bought me.hehe

third wk of dec: taiwan trip! the food in taiwan (except taipei) is really BAD.well, the appearance of them all really look super appealing and delicious. but they are just not to our singaporeans' liking. bleargh. however bad, there's still some food like oyster mee sua and oyster egg which are still loves. and of course,MUCH LOVE to the lousy rule of MR flat (bian), the economy in taiwan is going downhill, and thus whats the first thing that comes to ur mind? YES YES YES SHOPPING!got really lots of cheap buys which i m super proud of! on the sidenote, im really happy to see my dear little cousin LEE JUN DE!who is starting to serve God faithfully, whoever brought him to know God, THANKS A MILLION(: one last thing to mention, my mama didnt quarrel with me or my sis throughout the whole trip! yes yes yes. which is a really good thing. past few times we travel together as a family, we would always fight and bicker over trivial stuff. (: x infinity for this family breakthrough.

by the time i reach singapore its already 28th of dec! start doing last minute mugging for R papers and spent new yr eve night with tina! and yea for the first hour of new yr, I MUGGED. love love much love to my dear tina,fellow bimbo ti! she actually go thru 5 topics with me in a day reading and reading details to me. and I PASS MY BIO!WOOHOO!52 ! not even scrape pass one k.love u tina!

not to forget, i spent time meeting with lots of ppl since dec till now! elaine, jasmine, jaslin, jo, sarah, wensi, audrey, xinwei, sheila, sihuan, eve, yuchen......and one person i really wish to meet now is MY DEAREST SELINE CHAN! i m not a les but i m really in love with seline chan. its like random cravings for some food time to time. ok this sounds sick. but yea, i m just trying to say that i get seline-deprived easily. hope she's doing well and super happy 18th birthday!really hope to give her something memorable to celebrate our friendship which is coming into the NINTH YEAR!(: as i mentioned someway back in my blog, though there are times we have silent bickers, cold war, i still love u the same.

and not to forget. happy birthday to jiaqian and bentay!my much loved classmates.

And Lord, i want to be a filial child.
And Lord, i want to follow your ways.
And Lord, i want to spend time with you daily.
And Lord, i want to be the salt and light.
And Lord, i want to grow old with you.

today, i watch the disc given by laomuyang, recording memories of hccg. touching. love.

you love her, dont you?

2007-11-13T04:59:00.000-08:00

today is one of the super super super few days i decided to just stay in my room and use comp while listening to radio.BUTTTTTT. some stupid anonymous insect gave me 5 kisses in a short half an hour (i bet some were french kisses). and i m also very sure it is a flat-chested insect which is just jealous of me):

have been attending ce2 cg these few weeks and they have never failed to put a smile on my face(: sunday session with cool and cute, jon and a short while with jiexun was rather great, excluding the walking part of course. the earthquakes were superb!

recently, i have been reading this book titled "seven types of ambiguity" ( credits to may tan yi xuan). this book is one of the hardest books i have read, or maybe i have been reading one too many chick lit. there are actually some paragrpahs i have to re-read a few times to get its meaning.

One afternoon in bed, after a walk, she asked him how he could be so sure that he did not love her. Was she brave or stupid, do you think? Can you imagine you asking a question like that? Simon said he did love her and that she should know it, but that he was not in love with her. You can forgive her, under the circumstances, for thinking he was off on another semantic frolic of his own. If he hadn't been so forthcoming she might have taken comfort in the ambiguity.
"In spite of all that i unfortunately am now, or more accurately all that i m not, I am still far too cautious, too careful with you, to be in love with you. That's how i know, i suppose," he told her.

Seven types of ambiguity

A relationship between two people, just like a sequence of words, is ambiguous if it is open to different interpretations. And if two people do have differing views about their relationship--I just don't mean about its state, I mean about its very nature-- then that difference can affect the entire course of their lives.

Seven types of ambiguity

this book help me explain quite a few stuff i cant put it into words a lot of times. thats why i love this book.

the thank you smses i have received gave me a sense of guilt and sadness. I have actually forgotten when is the last time i reply a smple thanks when people send me a message of encouragement, the last time i said thanks when people did something for me. maybe i did sometimes, but i guess it was so casual i couldnt remember myself doing so at all.

why am i always so late to reciprocate love?

to people, to God. i m equally stingy with it. giving thanks to God, praising and worshipping Him should have long become a habit shouldnt they? i actually have to wait till just weeks ago when james ring an alarm in me, pointing out to me that i have not been exalting God, our Lord. He has done so much for me, everything i can do for Him is so incomparable to what He has given and....
God, i am sorry.

2007-11-08T06:40:00.000-08:00

i talked about you again just 2 days ago and i m so convinced once again you are the curse of my life.

The ability to relieve past emotional states is both an aptitude and a curse. It's a curse because it doesn't allow you to get on with your life. Every cut, every bruise, every rejection yields a harvest which is then stored. The pain is kept on ice and can be relied upon to taste as fresh as the day it was first inflicted.

The Seven Types of Ambiguity

talking about regrets, how many times have i gone thru those late night wailing, ranting how unfair is this world, threatening to end my life just like that. countless. maybe one day i can just feel numb about everything, shake off all consequences i have to bear, wouldnt life be much easier.

there's a sudden surge of fears spiralling thru my body now. fear of being neglected. fear of not being loved.fear of not performing up to expectation. fear of being left behind. fear of tears. fear of dark clouds. fear of......
this is one of those nights, i m afraid of being alone. captured by those fears, succumbed and helpless. if one day i can change my mentality to those of a 5yrsold child, wouldnt life be much happier.

my dream is to marry a guy who promised to love me forever wholeheartedly. i dream to build up a loving family with children who are always happy. i dream to just have to the money to buy anything i want, not necessarily be rich. i dream of my love bringing me to the most romantic dinner on valentine's day. at least for now, i still have this child-like faith that they will all come true.just that sometimes i really wonder, how long can this faith lasts,

just listened to the version of bei pan enacted by xiao jing teng. when i first listened to the song enacted by gary, frankly speaking i didnt feel that much pain, until i saw xiao jing teng sang it. the pain is like a vice gripping on so hardly inside him. the pain of the betrayed love. the pain to let go of one's love. it is written all over his face when he sang it. he's really good.
but for now, i just feel like turning back to my bossa nova who will never fail to cheer up my sunken heart. the lovely rhythm skipped out of a saxophone can always capture my heart so much. saxophone is love(:

and not forgetting, my pillar of support, my saviour, my God(:

i m not feeling that emo. cause after 1 hr i might just recover.
there are just days that are brighter than sunshine and some other days that are gloomier than the dark clouds. this is just one of those days. dont you feel the same way too sometimes?

"life's too short to be randomly emo"-- quoted from jiaqian

2007-11-04T07:46:00.000-08:00

hello. i m gonna blog about my this yr christmas cum 18th birthday wishlist!
READ CAREFULLY!(:

1. Pierre Cardin wallet (super long kind)
2. Celebrate with all the people i love!
3. An album recording memories of me and my loves.
4. SUPER SUPER ULTRA BIG PLUSHIE! (towel material kind)
5. Air Con!
6. 300 hunks lined up for me to hug!HAHA!
7. A princess room.
8. Lose 10kg
9. Tour Europe.
10. Go on mission trip.
11. DRESSES
12. Paul Frank 7 days undies.
13. Paul Frank pullover sweater.
14. Treat to nice high tea!
15. Spa at dempsey road.
16. Treat to spagheddies/ Hard Rock Cafe/ Mount Faber restaurant.
17. Permanent Hair Removal.
18. Bandeau/Halter Bikini top (no triangle!)
19. many many more wishes

haha. i know i m greedy. if anyone would love to fulfill any of my wish i will be SUPER grateful to you and i m serious(:
thanks a zillion!
HANG IN THERE J2!

2007-10-30T07:51:00.000-07:00

talking to jiaqian has become a daily basis.

missing my longest friend(considering still in contact) has become an alternate days thing. we exchanged whichever photo we have of each other last night and it is really funny. embarrassing yet heart warming. browsing through friendster, i have seen many chicks sisterias clad in their sexy and beautiful apparels camwhoring and posting their pretty pretty pictures up for people to view. At the same time, passer-bys who looked thru their profiles will gasp in awe of their wonderful relationship, and also maybe, their looks and figures. I admit that i am quite jealous in the latter sense but definitely not the former. My dearest friend is one of the most wonderful friends i have seen. It is funny how our relationship evolve since 8 yrs plus plus ago. From taking pictures with the most quirky look to now where we take the most hilarious pictures. Well, maybe not to other people, but definitely to us. We definitely dont have as wonderful figues and pretty faces as those on the "acquaintance speed mating engine", (BUT MY FRIEND HAS NICE FIGURE AND PRETTY FACE OK). Furthermore, our pictures are too unglam to be put up for public viewing. But, i still love her lots and lots and i really treasure alll the time we spent together. Although we still had mini bickers like the one at your sch and british council if you rmb,

i just want to say that i love you REALLY LOTS, seline chan liping.
(PS this is taken in sec 2 and she doesnt look like that now. OMG I WAS REALLY SKINNY THEN.HAHA)

2007-10-29T01:39:00.000-07:00

tifen needs to learn to embrace whatever she has/had, she need to learn love everyone place around her, because she doesnt deserve all of it.

after talking to many ppl about some issues bothering me, i realised how blessed i am by the Lord.
When i heard her pleading, when i saw her tears, i know i have said something so wrong. God can just give me one tight slap and i will fall to the ground and perish just like that. I have been to impatient to hear His calling. I have been pushing Him and whining like some big fat kid, oblivious to what pastors have been emphasizing throughout the years that God is always punctual. I am demanding from God, and what position am i in to do so.

I talked to her on sat and today. On sat i lied and i made her cry. And at that moment i realised, how much am i loved by her. She have been secretly looking after me all these while, and i have grown so much dependence on her. It's not her fault, but mine. I should be taking ownership on my own spiritual life, not her. Shepherds are not called to be standing by their sheep 24/7, esp when i am just an ex-laoyang. Today i met up with her again, and if i m not wrong, i saw tears welling up in her eyes twice. I held back my tears and forced out a giggle every now and then,trying hard to maintain my cheerful whiney tone. I know if i really were to decide on it, she and my spiritual butt would be the saddest people of all, including my shepherd now.

I owe her too much.

My spiritual butt is trying hard to help me in this. And she is one person i really owed to too. I am thinking of elaine phua now, she is another one. This shows how serious i m in debt.haha. But talking about my spiritual butt, i must deeply and sincerely thank her for taking so much for me, standing by me whenever i m down and cheering me up whenever i am sad. She will always set aside time just for me to lie on her sh0ulders and listen to my cnostant ranting and whining. God sent her for me to sustain me till now. And since God will never let us go thru problems beyond our ability to handle, why am i giving up.

I am too tired.

2007-10-26T09:09:00.000-07:00

i really felt like crying just now. but i didnt.
[location: orchard emerald traffic light]
instead, i did these:
1.close my eyes
2.count to 3
3.pray to God
4. listen to because of love by natalie grant
i m so proud of myself.

i am a girl who smiles to herself when she thinks about CE2.

there is this girl who loves to think about pretty stuff.

that is the girl who has learnt to be stronger.

she is a girl who always yearns to meet God.

2007-10-19T09:44:00.000-07:00

seline if u happen to read this, PLEASE DATE ME OUT SOON. I'VE GOT LOTS TO FA XIE TO YOU.AND I M SEVERELY MOVIE-DEPRIVED.THANK YOU LOVE.

life HAS NOT BEEN GOOD. PW is lasting too long and its so tiring. there's always so much to do and suddenly discovered quite a few loopholes in our WR when we have handed it in like after dayssss. things around me hasnt been good. like tina, i pray hard for world peace. i pray for better tolerance cause i REALLY need it. God loves me so despite of the countless sins i commit time and time again, shouldnt i learn to be more like God. follow God's way, thats what i have to do. other than the above, i am still very bothered about H1 and H2 bio.
SHOULD I DROP? OH MY GOD):
i swear this question can kill millions of my brain cells. its torturous.
AND LAST BUT NOT LEAST, H-O-M-E-W-O-R-K! i m quite sure i dont really have time to work in the holidays anymore. schedule is packed with studying, camp, trip. if i work i might just get so physically drained most of the time in the holidays, which is not suppose to be the case at all. holidays is suppose to rest!!!!so in order to complete what i have to complete in a slower pace, attend all meetings and gatherings at the same time, i cannot work. which means no extra cash which means must save if i want to shop!haii.SAVING UP IS ANOTHER PROBLEM THAT CAN KILL ANOTHER MILLIONS OF MY BRAIN CELLS.

few days ago i finally gave in, i spent the 50 bucks i earned at jia mum's workplace in one hour!went to some spa along thomson road for deep tissue massage. i swear the massage has got sth to do with yoga. i was hurting all over but i had to bear with it. all the yoga stunts seems to be trying to bring you on the search for spiritual divinity. quite tiring but definitely refreshing!plus the interior is much nicer than expected. and guess what! i saw huang wen yong!ok i know he's not some big shot. but he's a celebrity afterall what!he seems to go there quite often and i hope i can actually be oh so rich soon so that i can go massage like every week!FUN!

2007-10-14T01:41:00.000-07:00

1. (The person who tagged you is...) Ng WENSI!
2. (Your relationship with him/her is...) my hao jie mei!.
3. (5 impressions you have of him/her.) super emo girl! haha! get emo easily and super camwhore! she likes really cute stuff and will go crazy over them! also, she's a selfless and friendly girl whom everyone will love to be with!
4.(The most memorable thing he/she has done for you.) hmmm. maybe not done for me. but she trusted in me enough to tell me her probems!
5. (The most memorable words he/she has said to you.) "HELLO TIFEN" WHEN I M A DISTANCE AWAY FROM HER IN HCI!(not even my sch OMG CRAZY GIRL!)
6. (If he/she becomes your lover, you will...) BE A LES. BUT since both of us will insist to be the girl so its highly impossible!
7. (If he/she becomes your lover, things he/she has to improve on will be...) become richer and BE EXTREMELY GIVING.haha!
8. (If he/she becomes your enemy, you will...) cry and kill her!
9. (If he/she becomes your enemy, the reason will be...) because....... I GOT TO KNOW TORRES AMOS AND HE FALLS IN LOVE WITH ME AND WE ARE BOTH HAPPILY MARRIED!
10. (The most desirable thing you want to do for him/her now is...) buy super nice cheesecake and ice blended coffee to her house then we shall spend the whole afternoon talking (gossipping!hehe)
11. (Your overall impression of him/her is...) SHE'S MY SUPERB BIMBO!
12. (How you think people around you will feel about you.) CRAZY AND BIMBOTIC( IF U ASK TINA BIM AND VJTT OF COURSE )
13. (The characteristic you love about yourself is...) i'm very friendly and I am a God follower!
14. (On the contrary, the characteristic you hate about yourself is...) that i love to procrastinate and i love complaining.HEH
15. (The most ideal person you want to be is...) a really faithful servant of God who only seeks after God and only Him! ok. i really look up to liping and my secret ouxiang.HAHA!
16. (For people that care and like you, say something to them...) i love every single one of u!
17. (Pass this quiz to 10 people that you wish to know how they feel about you - TRY NOT TO PEEP AT THE QUESTION BELOW BEFORE WRITING DOWN THE NAMES.)
01) wensi
02) seok
03) jiexun
04) tina
05) james
06) fung
07) lilin
08) jon
09) tracy
10) eunice

(Who is no. 6 -Fung - having a relationship with?) our big Daddy in heaven!
(Is no. 9 - tracy - a male or female?)Female.
(If no. 7 - lilin- and 10 - eunice - are together, will it be a good thing?) i think both have homophobia?HAHA!
(How about no. 8 -jon- and 5 - james) james quite girly so i think it will be perfectly alright!
(What is no. 2 - seok - studying about?)i only know she is in arts faculty and takes IH!
(When was the last time you had a chat with no. 3 - jiexun?) i think max 2 weeks ago? he introduced me to dim sum girl song for the THIRD TIME.
(What kind of music band does no. 8 - jon - like?) all praise and worship i think! cause they have taken up almost all the storage space!
(Does no. 1 - Wen si- have any siblings?) no!!!!!!!
(Will you woo no. 3 - Jiexun?) i think i would if i am really determine to have 7 kids!HAHA!
(How about no. 7 - lilin?) i think i have homophobia tooooo
(Is no. 4 - tina - single?) no!!!!SHE GOT HER STUPID FAT FAT!
(What's the surname of no. 5 - james) KANG! omg i rmb!
(What's the name of no. 10 - eunice?) EUNICE?!haha! dont rly know the full name:P
What's the hobby of no. 4 - tina?) shopping and MAKING A FOOL OF HERSELF WITH EHR BIMBOTIC-NESS!
(Do no. 5 -james - and 9 - tracy - get along well?) hard to say! maybe tracy will die laughing at james kang girly-ness.
(Where is no. 2 - seok - studying at?) HWA CHONG!
(Say something casual about no. 1 - WenSI) she is a girl but not yet a woman? HAHA!
(Have you tried developing feelings for no. 8 - jon?) noooo! hes just a good ol' brother bear:D
(Where does no. 9 - tracy- live?) HOUGANG! been to her house once! for my very first hc cg!
(What color does no. 4 - tina - like?) PINK PINK PINK PINK! bimbo what. actually i think she wished her whole world is painted pink .HAHA
(Are no. 5 - james - and 1 - wensi - best friends?) no! they dont know each other!
(Does no. 7 - lilin - like no. 2 - seok?) they dont know each other! but if they do, she will most probably will! seok is a hard-to-resist friend!
(How did you get to know no. 2 - seok?) we were once from the same CE2! with the same shepherd!
(Does no. 1 - Wensi - have any pets?)i dont think so! maybe a tamagotchi?haha!
(Is no. 7 - lilin - the sexiest person in the world?) NOOO!!!!CAUSE OF ME DUH!HAHA!i WILL be the sexiest and maybe i will let her in come after me and be the second if she really desires to!ahah!

2007-10-12T09:17:00.000-07:00

sawadee kap!

spent a whopping 10 hrs at tcc millenia walk ytd helping jiaqian's mum out in her work. YES WE PONNED SCH AND I MISSED OUT MY LOVE'S(MR CHUAH) LESSON.i really do miss him but i think he would prabably think i m crazy if i asked to take a picture with him: our walk is skill-less BUT NOT brain-less. all we had to do was follow the design and peel off the stickers. it seems easy yet super tiring. my back is aching and my fingers hurt too. my butt suffered from occasional cramping just like after doing tons of frog jumps. booo.but its quite fun nevertheless la(: we get to talk and gossip, listen to mp3, leave at whatever time u want, go burger king and buy drinks whenever u want, sit or stand also can, do slow or badly also no one cares.haha!but since i take the money i will do my best ok! me and jiaqian were super efficient compared to ben tay and his gang / kx and her gang! and after work jiaqian mum actually brought me to this super nice and posh german restaurant! well, the food wasnt exactly to my liking but the setting is really superb! its called paulander brahaus at millenia walk! didnt manage to capture any pic cause of lousy cam:

today we went to sch for assembly and albeit of pw session! i m STRESSED. pw is too long. but really want to say a big thank you to my teammates! i hate to say this but THANK YOU SO MUCH OUR DEAR GRP LEADER MR TOE.haha! yea he's beeen nice all yr round and always try to get us going when we give up along the way. after that jiaqian ben tyc kx and i went to work for jiaqian mum again! we were fairly more efficient today and its good! high tea buffet with sarah and jo was cancelled!booooo.U DISAPPOINTING PPL! please meet up SOOOON OK! at night went job hunting with seline chan along clarke quay and were met with some really horrible ppl. neveetheless, we still met with funny guys draped in menstrual red giving out paddies to miss ladies. got them to take a pic with us and they are really cooperative!

i realised my tolerance level is amazingly low after getting into junior college. this is bad. i found out i have very extremist ideas in quite a few stuff. i have failed to compromise like before. i tend to complain like some crazy women. this is REALLY BAD.
i hope God will really help me in this, if not i will just totally lose control of my emotions.

2007-10-09T06:44:00.000-07:00

1973 and the potential breakup song is the perfect combination.

i got back my papers and tifen reaped what she sowed! it was considered a rather good harvest i must say. Lord is love! He stood by me throughout. thanks for the umpteen prayers from different ppl too! thanks a lot(:

stats:
CHINESE
paper 1 improved by 26 marks.
paper 2 deproved by 3 marks.
midyr:38 marks ; promos: 50!
overall 12 marks of improvement!

MATHS
mid yr: 41 ; promos: 57!
overall 16 marks of improvement!

GP
mid yr: 40 ; promos: 49!
overall 9 marks of improvement!

BIO
mid yr:33 ; promos: 40!
overall 7 marks of improvement!

CHEM
mid yr: 47 ; promos: 47.5!
overall 0.5 marks of improvement!

YAY!!!ALL IMPROVED!
though my bio is still bad, i hope my next yr i wld have done much better!just like what big prange tell me, now i have improved 12 marks for chinese, maybe next yr by As i will get more than 100 marks!haha!YES ITS REALLY ENCOURAGING.

2007-10-08T07:51:00.000-07:00

i woke up from the correct side of the bed today. i m sure i did.
i was so high and all until training is an hour away to begin, my mood plunged.
there's just this unknown manifestation of anger, bitterness, jealousy, sorrow blahblah, and any other synonyms u can think of, inside me .
basically, i m just in a super bad mood now.

during the break btwn end of sch and trng,i was hanging around with lilin. ordered thaipan and i had got a glutton share of lunch. come to think of it, it could be the fault of thaipan fried rice that made my mood take a skydive. cause after the meal i began to feel rather depressed out of a sudden.
YES NOTE, out of a sudden. it is definitely not the aftermath of my results or whatsoever.
then we went library and charge my mp3. i was reading my bimbotic book while lilin further helped me in setting up facebook. YES I DO NOT HAVE A FACEBOOK AND MAYBE I SHOULD BE REALLY PROUD OF IT.haha! well , i dare to stand apart from the hottest trend now!hey! i m not saying facebook is a bad thing. just that i will love to commend myself for showing a total nonchalent/indifferent attitude towards this what seems like an online hot chick where everyone is super enthu and keen to check out.
back to charging of mp3, tina bim joined us and i just started my series of whining abt my GP with a melancholic-OHMYGOD-sexy charming voice. u all could have thought that yes tifen is confirm chop chop depress cause of her results but u all are wrong!*evillaughs* CAUSE I HAVENT EVEN GOT BACK MY GP PAPER AND I M WORRIED LIKE A WOMAN WHO LOST HER NEH NEHSSS WHILE HAVING A RUN IN THE NEIGHBOURHOOD.ok this is crazy AND EXAGGERATING.but yea. i m just nearly in that state.

i desperately need a pint of haagen daaz melon and ben and jerry's chunky monkey each. maybe an addition of a stash of all choc ranging from kitkat to Godiva will do good too.
PS: this is the best chance to show ur love for me:D

2007-10-07T06:58:00.000-07:00

hello doods/tweets.
i am setting up a new blog cause i m starting to hate my nose.
Actually...NO.
hahaha! i still love every part of me as much as before. and i think nothing is gonna change this fact until the day my dearest Father, the King in heaven tells me,"dear princess, i seriously think ur nose is ugly."
WHICH IS NEVER GONNA HAPPEN CAUSE IM HIS DEAR PRINCESS AND I M HIS WONDERFUL CREATION.HEH!
so my thinking is gonna prevail from now till forever and ever and ever and ever....

kk. so actually i just think my blog need a new start cause there's too much eek-sy memory stored in there.

anyway. life has been fine and i think i m rather enjoying.
the wailing and screaming cause of the attack by terrorist DNA, and his gang of Ionic Equilibria and dy/dx is over.
i must admit my spiritual life has not been growing linearly but rather, extending at dy/dx=0. but i m really grateful for the people my dearest Father have sent into my life such my spiritual butty seok, laomuyang liping and half-manwoman yinling to give me a helping hand at appropriate times.

i m missing lots of people such as seline chan, elaine phua, the CHENS, to name a few.
i m currently reading the book titled the chocolates lover's club and it seems to be trying very hard to convince me choc is the women's best friends. but NONO. ice cream > choc(:

i want to say a lot of things but my thoughts are in a mess like Medusa's hair. will blog again really soon, hopefully tomorrow.
i shall see my mood.
bye doods/tweets!